Finding my "MOM HEART"
Today is Mother's Day....and a particularly emotional one at that. In just 3 short weeks I will watch as my oldest son walks across the stage to pick up his high school diploma. I've dreaded this day for about 15 years. Why only 15 of his 18 years? Because I wasn't one of those girls that dreamed of being a mom since I was little. When I did get pregnant, I wasn't one of those women who loved every minute of it...as a matter of fact I hated it! I felt terrible all the time and the hormones quickly took over and turned me into someone I didn't even like being around, but couldn't get away from. Then Zach was born, December 29th, 1998. Not a clue what I had just gotten myself into!!!!!! I tried nursing and we both stunk at it and it left him with jaundice and a hospital stay. I stayed close by but found myself not having a clue what to do for him. I quickly learned something about myself that I never had to pay attention to before...I didn't have a natural nur...